Sooo close.. yet so far

Like I said in my last post about my weight loss journey, I am getting serious about this stuff now and I am going to post about it to keep me on track - so I hope you enjoy reading it too!!

The first ever time I did 12WBT was 2 years ago when I returned from my exchange program in Canada. I didn't tell anyone (except A and my family) that I was doing it and I didn't do it with anyone. I didn't want the embarrassment if yet another "fad" didn't work out or people to know that I was following a celebrity trainer.

 I chose the outdoor program to keep my costs low, but I decided I would put all my trust in Michelle Brydges and follow her program exactly and that's what I did.

I remember looking at some of the exercises and thinking "yeah right, as if I can do that", but I did it nonetheless. I did them by myself in the park and I didn't care how long it took me to finish each round, I did it.

Before I knew it, my mentally had changed. I would arrange to meet friends for coffee and not dinner (to avoid bad choices), I would only go out after my exercise had been completed each night and I would wake up on a Saturday morning ready to run, ready to complete super Saturday session. 

After a few months I couldn't keep this program a secret anymore, because people were commenting on how I looked and asking what I was doing. I wasn't ashamed anymore and I told the whole world what I was doing, as I explained to them the different calories in each food item and my new hate for food courts.

After I finished the first round, a friend joined me for the second round of 12WBT.

From those two rounds, I lost an amazing 15kgs. I didn't realise how well I had done or how good I was looking, I just knew I felt amazing and I felt like this was the new Sarah.

I posted this picture on Facebook at the time and my friends couldn't believe it.

(I use to mess up A's room like this everytime I visited lol)

I then went off the program and tried to do it on my own and I did.... for a good 6months, I gained no weight at all... then I gained a little bit and lost a little bit.

Unfortunately, I am now currently 6kgs heavier than I was then. I am not completely back to my starting point, but I am not happy either. The thing that makes losing weight so hard now (and this may seem funny to you) is that I only have 6kgs to go... this changes my mentality tremendously!!!!! I see some lollies at work and I think oohh one won't hurt, after all I don't need to lose 15kgs this time, right???

I see myself having this mentality and I hate it. I need to imagine I have 100kgs to go.

I think it is this mentality that makes it so difficult to "lose the last 5kgs".

But no, not anymore sister, this is a turning point and yes there have been several posts on me turning myself around and that is because I am trying to reinforce it every time I say it.

Your healthy weight is not always what a BMI tracker tells you  (e.g. Muscley men are usually seen as overweight) or some Facebook app, to me it is when I FEEL healthy, fit and on top of my game.

6kgs to go!!!